I did not have chemo today. The current treatment is not working enough to keep me on this clinical trial. My tumors are growing, slowly, but none the less growing.
So on to plan, I don't know H???
Yes, I am very sad, I cried a lot....but what can I do? It is what it is.
We have a new plan. I don't know all the details and I won't be starting for a bit. The side effects can be very various...so I could do wonderful or not so good.
One of the side effects is anorexia - I can safely say, I think I am safe from that!....Yes, more steroids...oh man....and possibly some hair loss. I hope not. My hair dresser though said if it is just thinning, she can do extensions or weives....so, at least there is help.
I hate posting this....but that is what this blog is for....so I give the bad and the good.
Oh, and when the going gets tough....the tough really d0 go shopping. Check it out at my other blog...Thinkin of Home.
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Ceekay,
I am just so very , very sorry.........
I wish I could just give you a great bigh hug.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Lynn
PS I'm going to go check out what you went shopping for:)
Oh sweetie I am so sorry that you didn't get chemo and about the news you received today.
I am praying so hard for you....I love that you are thinking ahead as to what to do for hair loss. My hair never did come back like it was before Chemo but hey there are always wigs or scarves.
Take care and know that your blogging friends care so much and are praying for you and your family....Hugs
Hi Ceekay,
Thinking of you dear and hoping for a new treatment that will work better. I look forward to seeing you next week. My thoughts and prayers are with you too. Cindy
You are a riot - you went shopping - GOOD FOR YOU!!! Do it again tomorrow. My husband actually works for Bristol Meyers Squibb and he knows an awful lot about cancer clinical trials and different new drugs. I will ask him to do some searching tomorrow and see if he comes up with any other leads. I know its hard - but chin up Ceekay - something will work. They are making great progress with ovarian cancer research. In the meantime Saint Jude is amazing and he has seriously NEVER let me down. Tonight I will pray with him for you.
Dee xoxo
Oh, Dear Ceekay! I'm sorry, Dear One to hear this, but I'm praying the new treatment will be a winner and the side effects just won't happen. You are an inspiration with your sweet cheerful spirit. I pray right now our mighty God will hold you in His loving arms and give you peace, hope and healing.
Love you,
Shelia ;)
So sorry to hear this. I'm praying for you.
I'm so sorry Ceekay. You know I'm praying for you every day. I hope this next treatment is the winner.
How can they tell so soon? Are they doing a CA125? Those aren't totally reliable. Did they do an ultra sound?
No this was not the news I wanted to hear. But am excited to hear you do have a new plan. Were you ever on Toxol?
Well, you have a HELL OF A LOT of women and friends in blogland who are praying for you. Who knows, the Lord just might get sick of hearing from us all . . .
The good news about the side effects - you don't have to shave your legs any more . . . GRIN!
We will gab the night away when I'm over next weekend . . . YAY!
Hi Ceekay
Well I just love your sense of humour.. in the midst of all this worry you still make us laugh.. good for you...
I think Karen and the girls are right!! a lot of ppl out there praying and wishing you well!! Hang in there.. you are inspirational with that sense of humour!! I'm going to check out your shopping trip now and see what damage you did !! xx Julie
I weep with you, Ceekay! I pray for you a lot, every time the Lord brings you to mind ("a lot!") I don't like the trials we have to experience in this life. Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent. Today's lesson was on "being in the desert," as Jesus was. He is our hope! How could anybody walk through the desert without Him! I'm thankful you have Jesus in your life to walk with you!
I'm praying for wisdom for the doctors with the new treatments.
Katherine
Ceekay, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm praying for you and for the new treatment having good results...hugs, Linda
So sorry to hear the treatment isn't working. One of my favorite sayings is when God closes a door, he opens a window...or something like that. Your window will open. Keep the faith!
Dear Ceekay, I am so sorry to hear about the latest. I pray that God opens the way for a plan that will be the best for you. I know he will see you through this rough patch.
Thank you for your bravery in posting along this journey. Even in distress, you continue to inspire with your fight and courage.
Sending you big hugs and remember, we are all here for you to lean on.
Love, Celestina Marie
Ceekay, I am so very sorry! We'll continue with the plan of lots and lots of prayers!!! Mine are with you, dear friend! ~big hugs and much love, Rhonda
I'm a new follower.You have really touched my heart.Please know that you and your precious family have my prayers.
You and your family are in my prayers. Sending lots of hugs and love.
Ah, Ceekay, that was some danged cruddy news. I, too, am so sorry it wasn't better..especially since it was right before your birthday.
You are such an amazing gal. . . facing your fight with such determination and grace. I also continue to keep you in my prayers. . .L, dana
I just prayed for you...that God will guide your physicians during your treatment and place his arms around you and comfort you to give you the strength to fight your battle.
Oh Ceekay, what awful news! Love your fighting spirit though...it'll pull you through lots of bad spots in life. You remain in my prayers friend.
I just hate it when bad things happen to good people. It's just not right! Try to stay positive and I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that so many people are thinking and praying for you.
Oh, Ceekay, I'm so sorry the treatments are not working. At times like this, one feels so helpless but that is when one must reach out and touch the hem of His garment and He will lift you up! Don't lose your sense of humor; one needs to laugh in the face of adversity.
Praying for you, dear friend, and hoping you'll have many better days, months, and years ahead.
Blessings,
Sandi
Ceekay I am praying hard for you. I just KNOW you will do well with the new plan. We both know not giving up is the way to be for life.
You are strong and wonderful. A great combo.
Love ya my friend. ~Melissa
You are strong! You shall overcome! I know this is another challenge but all of us are here to walk this path with you. There WILL be something new and I thank God there is. There is great power in so many praying for you ~ 'where two or more are gathered in My name..'
You are a beautiful person and only good things are wished for you!
xoxo
Pat
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