Welcome to my blog dedicated to my Journey with Teal....Ovarian Cancer. This blog is where I will make updates to my treatments and tests....hoping to keep blog friends updated and answer any questions from visitors. I did not pick this journey, but am doing the best I know how to walk strong and gracefully, with my Lord's continual strength!

Monday, November 25, 2013

I am alive and

not well.  I started traditional chemo three weeks ago and now have an infection through my whole body.  I must admit, I feel pretty miserable.

I see my oncologist tomorrow.  I have no idea what they are going to do.  Although I love Fall, it doesn't seem to be the best for me health wise.  I was hospitalized and totally out of it this time last year.

If you sense frustration....you are correct.  I don't like to complain.  But this isn't what I call living.  More like enduring.  I am tired.  I don't want to quit the fight.  But my body seems like it is rebelling against everything.

To my prayer warriors, I need your prayers.  I have two beautiful grandchildren that I would love to see grow up.  Please pray that my doctor finds something to help me, but not make me so ill.  Oh, and by the way, even though they said I wouldn't, I lost my hair again .....3rd time.

Thanks for listening.  If you read Thinkin of Home, you will see my posting is sporatic. 

Have a blessed Thanksgiving.....enjoy every moment, and get the hugs while you can!

49 comments:

Helen said...

I have a turquoise ribbon and wear it proudly ... please hang in there!

Poppy @ With a Dash of Color said...

Praying for you Ceekay! Big hugs, Poppy

Maureen said...

Thinking of you Ceekay and do hope you are feeling better soon. Take care.

Mary @ Ms. Redo said...

I want you to feel better, I pray the oncologist can do something to help you when you see him. We all love you and are praying daily. Let me know if there's anything I can, oh Ceekay you know what I mean, I just wish there was something I *could* do! Love you bunches,
Mary

Stacey said...

Ceekay, I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. You are a fighter and a strong woman. Please don't give up!

Vee said...

Praying for wisdom for your doctors and for your body to respond to the meds easily and well. Peace and sweet comfort to you and your precious family.

Beth said...

Praying for you, Ceekay. So sorry you are having to deal with this illness. God loves you, and He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall, but those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. (from Is. 40:29-31)
God bless you and keep you, dear Ceekay.
Beth

Carol said...

I'm so sorry, Ceekay, that you are having to go through this again. I'm praying for you every day.

Carol

Mary Ellen said...

I am so sorry to hear you are having such a bad time of it right now Ceekay. I was just thinking of our time together when you were here the other day while taking down the little antique sewing machine down that you had displayed so prettily for me. Yes I will be praying for you my friend.
I started up a Bible study with 12 ladies at my house and one of the things we are learning is how that God is always always at work in our lives and those around us. Even in sickness and pain- pray you will feel his loving presence around you during this time.

bee blessed
mary

Yellow Rose Arbor said...

Sending my love to you and joining the others in prayer. I hope you feel the prayers and our love.

Katherine

Shelia said...

Oh, Ceekay! I'm so sorry to hear you're going through such a hard time. I'm praying for you and sending you lots of love.
Shelia

Happy@Home said...

You will be in my prayers, Ceekay.
I am sorry to hear that you have been going through such a tough time.
Sending hugs your way (())

Ann Marie said...

I am sooo sorry Ceelay! I am praying for you. God does "do" miracles and I am praying or one for you!

Happy To Be/ Gl♥ria said...

Girl don't give up the GREAT fight you and I have both done..Sending many prayers and love your way..keep strong..God hears your name..Gloria

Kaite Kabel said...

You are so strong!!! I pray that the doctors find something to help you. Your support and understanding got me through the lowest point in my life and I could NEVER repay you for that... Your an amazing soul and my prayers are always with you! I love you very much!!!! �� Katie

Cheryl @ TFD said...

I will be praying for you, Ceekay. I am so sorry you aren't feeling well. I pray that the doctors will find a way to help you and that you will keep fighting until this intrusion in your body is kicked out for good!! (((Hugs)))

Julie@beingRUBY said...

Hi Ceekay
Saying a prayer for you and sending good thoughts your way

I say complain away you have the right to I think. Scream at the moon he can take and it might feel good to let go of some frustrations. I think you are a fighter so go ahead and fight back! Xx julie

Cindy (Applestone Cottage) said...

Dear Ceekay,
I am so sorry this last round of treatments has been so rough.
Please know that we are all praying for you.
You have been so strong and such a role model for so many.
Sending big hugs and more prayers,
Cindy

Corn in my Coffee-Pot said...

Ceekay - what an awful time for you to be so I'll again a second year in the fall. I know it is frustrating for you. Don't ever feel like you have to make excuses or justify feeling crummy. It is what it is. I'm hoping they find a combination of meds thst work got you- getting hugs while we can is good advice for everyone. Thank you yor your honesty and your inspiration. Prayers to God on your behalf- happy thanksgiving week to you.
The grace of The Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit.
-Pat

Val said...

love and prayers to you ♥

sissie said...

God Bless you Ceekay. We all love you so very much and pray for your recovery.

hugs
Sissie

Laura Ingalls Gunn said...

Oh my friend, how sad I am to hear that you are not responding well. I do so remember what a scare you gave us last year.

You are always in my prayers and I am still smiling over your sweet Putz houses. That was a fun day!

Be blessed dear one.

Theresa said...

I am stopping by from Mary's blog! I wanted you to know that I am and will be praying for you! BIG HUGS and continued prayers from Georgia!

Cheryl Lawson said...

CeeKay,
I am thinking about you and hoping that your appointment with the oncolologist goes well. Get some rest and try to have a Happy Thanksgiving...let others wait on you this year! You are in my prayers,
Cheryl

Marty@A Stroll Thru Life said...

Oh CK, I am so sad to hear this. I was so hoping this would go well for you and you wouldn't be so sick. You know you are always in my prayers. If I can do anything for you, just call, I mean it. I am here. Love you tons, Hugs, marty

Ann said...

Eternal Father, I lift Ceekay up into your presence this day and ask that you would strengthen her body, lay your healing hand upon her and pour out your power from the top of her head to the bottom of her feet. Let her feel your presence and your love and rest comfortably both in mind and body in your presence knowing that your plan for her life is carefully and lovingly being revealed and that your love for her will never fail. In Jesus' precious name, Amen.

Debby said...

Praying for you and sending (((((HUGS)))). You have to be so tired of all of this. Hoping for much better days ahead.

Teresa said...

Dear Ceekay, I am praying for you. I know it must be so hard for you, I wish with all my heart that the cancer would just go away. Praying that the doctor will find a treatment that is not so hard on your body. Thinking about you and praying for your healing.

NanaNor's said...

Hi Ceekay, My heart aches for you; I know my sister would tell me to encourage you to continue the fight. She had three surgeries and more chemo sessions that I can remember. It isn't easy. I know that you are a beacon of light to those undergoing treatment when you are there. Sending prayers and big hugs to you today.
Noreen

Celestina Marie said...

Many prayers for you Ceekay. Sending hugs your way for better days ahead. Your journey has been a tough one and you are an inspiration to all!
Hugs, Celestina Marie

GARAGE SALE GAL said...

Dear Father/God...
In the precious name of your Beloved Son, we are asking for HEALING for Ceekay's cancer. We are asking for COMPLETE healing. We are asking for her body to be healed and for her body to be restored. Please Father also guide and direct her doctors for the best medicine/treatment for this healing to begin and may Ceekay feel 100% better. Thank you, Father for taking care of Ceekay and the Blessings that will be given to her! In Jesus' precious Name. AMEN.

Liz Hockamier said...

I'm praying for you daily! Love you!
~Liz

The Quintessential Magpie said...

I pray health and renewal to your body and spirit in Jesus name.

xo

Sheila

Kelly said...

I just HATE to read that you are suffering right now. This is supposed to be an exciting time of year too. Cancer is just an awful thing for anyone to have to experience. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you will get through this and come out of this better than before.

Laura said...

Dearest Ceekay-
You are in all of our prayers-

keep a tight rein.


Love-
Laura

Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces said...

Ceekay, I am so sorry to hear how badly you are feeling right now...I am lifting you in prayer for strength, healing, and the peace which passes understanding...XOXO

Adrienne said...

Oh, my dear friend, I am praying. Much! And I'm asking the Father to hold you close in His arms and to heal your body. You are so loved. I trust God will give wisdom to your doctors to find something to help you get better very soon. With hugs and love,
~Adrienne~

Mimi said...

HI CEEKAY,
Keep fighting ...you will BEAT this..I know you will.WE have a 60th Birthday party in the planning for you...remember...we talked about all the different options....it will be fun...and we get to celebrate you!!!
I am saying a prayer right now that GOD will reach down and touch you in a mighty way. REST and keep looking for the end to this race...remember this is going to a race...not a little sprint.....WE Can Do this....we can beat this....I WILL WIN and Live along time.....
I send you lots of hugs and much Love,
jamie

Theresa Winter said...

Dear Ceekay,
Praying for you right now. Asking our Jesus to rain down healing on you. Hang in there.
Theresa

Donna said...

Prayers will be sent up for you and your family.

Walking on Sunshine said...

Praying for you!

Bernie said...

I am so sorry that you are so ill just now. Praying that God gives you strength to continue this fight against cancer. Please know I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always.

Terra said...

Ceekay I am praying for healing and strength for you. A verse to share with you is a favorite of mine "For I will restore your health to you, and heal your wounds, says the Lord." Jermiah 30"17

Yvonne said...

God's got this!
Prayers from
Your Louisiana follower

Rettabug said...

Awww, Ceekay, what a struggle you have to endure, Honey! I am so very sorry that it is getting you down & is more & more difficult each time. I pray for you at every single Mass & will again light a candle for you, too, next week.

Don't ever think that you can't complain...if ANYONE has the right to gripe about something, it surely is YOU! This has been a real test of your Faith & endurance & patience. Complain all you want!!

Mega Healing Hugs,
Rett

Beth said...

Ceekay, I pray that God will send you healing. So many are praying for you. May you feel the presence of His Holy Spirit.

Gayla said...

Much love and care. I hope you feel much better and have a good Christmas with your family.

Rettabug said...

Popping back in here, to say I hope you are feeling better & that the infection has healed by now.
Praying for you daily, Kiddo!!!

Lilia Bravo said...

Que la gracia de Dios te alcance, que te sostenga en su mano y te alivie pronto, es el deseo de alguien que desde este momento reza por ti.
Lilia.