I Have Had a Secret!

I have had the most wonderful thing happen to me!  I was published in a new Online Magazine called Living Better at 50+.  My first article was My Journey with Teal.  If you would like to read it here is the link:  http://livingbetterat50.com/?p=1814

Oh for Goodness Sake!

Today was doctor day.  So here is the condensed version.  Saw my monthly visit at the eye doctor.  Needed to order more contacts.  But I mentioned that I felt I wasn't seeing as clearly as last year.  Yeah duh, my prescription has changed.  So ordered new contacts.  Oh, ok....now to see my oncologist.  So he comes in and says...How you been feeling?  Me:  Oh, ok I guess.  Dr.  No, you haven't.  You have an UTI.  Me:  Really?  Well, I haven't felt the best, ( insert that really I haven't felt particularly well, but I hate to complain.)  But, no, I am officially sick.  On antibiotics.  Then, Dr....do you know how much weight you lost this month?  Me:  No, a few pounds....Dr....9 more pounds.! So, now I am on another anti diarreah medicine.  Oh man, I was exhausted by the time we got out of there.  Came home and took a nap.  I have to call them next week and HONESTLY tell them how I am doing.

So much for thinking things were ok!

Hi All!

This coming week is one of doctor visits again.  It seems like the months roll by so quickly.  But I had the best day today....why?  well, I tried fake toenails.  I don't know what took me so long....my poor toes suffered from one of the types of chemo and I was just bemoaning not being able to wear flip flops!  I found these at Walmart!  I am thrilled.  They look so good.....supposed to last a week, but we will see with baths and showers...but even if they only work a couple of days....I am still happy with it!  Ordered another eyebrow pencil product.  This will be my fifth.  Hopefully I will be happy with it.  My eyebrow on the left never came back in very good....and you know we need eyebrows!

Been trying to shop and find some clothes for my trip....had some success...but still a ways to go.  Losing weight is wonderful, but quite a major thing when you need everything new.  I have never worn the size I am in now!!  And I need a swin suit.  Oh mercy!!  I may need a Xanax for that trip!!  That will be the last thing I buy!

Talk to you all again soon!  Have a good week!

Just checking in!

Hard to believe how quickly the days pass.  I try so hard to squeeze everything I possibly can out of a day!  Looking forward to an important event is fun, but I try not to focus too much on that and lose TODAY!

I am feeling pretty good.  I do believe that the current treatment is building up in my body and tends to give me a bit more fatigue than I would like.  But, what can you do huh?

I have been trying to do some clothes shopping.  What a challenge.  I have lost a lot of weight due to the meds and I really have very little that fits me properly.  But I don't want to spend too much as I could gain some back when they change my meds.  Plus, all sizes are so different. 

Since my surgery I struggle with waists in pants and dresses.  I could wear almost 2 sizes smaller, but I cannot stand anything binding around the middle.  Which I have to guess where that is cuz I no longer have a real waist.  Not a real belly button either.  Said good bye to that with my ovaries and etc!!!

Then IF I find something that fits, like capris (I love them) they only have one pair....hello, like what about different colors?  I just don't think the stores are putting in the same amount of articles due to the economy.  Oh well, I am finding things bits and pieces.

Today hubby is back to work from his days off and I am going to fluff around the house.  You know...get it back to the way I like it...not just man clean!!

I will talk to you all again soon.  Enjoy the day!!

Good Report from the Oncologist!

I got my CT scan results and they were again "stable".  Current round of chemo will continue.  I am so happy.  It is always like a weight off my shoulders when I hear those words.
Doctor just wants me to get over this crud I am fighting...well, fighting, but I lost the war!  I am feeling better...just got to get my strength back.

Thank you for all your concern and prayers.  They mean the world to me!

My day with the CT scan

In wanting to keep it real, I have to share my experience yesterday while getting my CT scan.

I have been sick all week with some kind of crud.  I even called my chemo nurse to make sure she knew I was ill and should I still have the scan.  She said yes unless I got sicker.  So the night before the scan and the morning of I took the following meds:  my high blood pressure pill, my 2 chemo pills, 2 advil cold pills, and 32 mg of predisone for premeds for scan.  I was feeling a bit fuzzy.

I go in, drink my mega water and get called back.  There was a different nurse than I normally have and she takes me to the dressing closet and tells me everything off but my panties and shoes and gives me 2 gowns to wear.  I am thinking in my head.  I KNOW, I have done this a hundred times.  Thank you Jesus for giving me the wisdom this once to keep my mouth shut!

So I get the gowns on and I go out and they are ready for me.  The nurse looks at me and says "oh hon, could you put the gowns on the other way so we can access your port. (Meaning back gown on first then the top gown.)  I said oh yes, I am sorry, I know better.

I go into the closet again and I take off the gowns and stand there and cannot for the life of me figure out what I am supposed to do.  I kept putting them on and off, no, that isn't right...I am needing now to go to the restroom from all the water and the giggling.  Finally, I get it right.  Whew....

I go with the nurse to the CT room and get on the little "bed".  They position me and get my port all set up.  Then they do the trial run.  Take a deep breath, bed goes in, hold it....bed comes out, breathe.

Nurse comes in to check on port, or so I thought.  She says to me "hon, do you think we could take your bra off?"  I am thinking my bra? is it on?  what?  then she says, but you can't sit up...we don't want to lose your position.

Huh?  Now, ladies....I am just going to say here that God blessed me, if you know what I mean.  How am I getting this bra off without moving?  Ok, left arm out, right arm, don't mess the port, out.....arch back...she slips her hand to unhook my bra.."ok, I got it, oh, no, there are 3  hooks!!  No, seriously...just keeping it real! 

As my bra slips off the side of me I am thinking thank you Jesus...I wore a pretty bra today...and not the orthopedic one!!

I am sure they are all still talking about it!

hello everyone

Just wanted to touch base.  I am doing well.  Next CT is on the 10th....hope all will still be stable.  I still battle the fatique some, but as we all know, no chemo is without it's side effects.  I am blest that over all, I am able to function quite well.
I haven't heard anymore on my cousin.  I hope no news is good news.

Hope you all are having a great January.  They go so fast.  I can't believe Valentine's day is right around the corner!